I have a confession to make. I have a slight addiction to all things learning and growing.I spend a lot of time (read that as way too much) time researching, reading, googling and taking amazing courses. It isn’t a bad habit to have as learning and continually striving to improve yourself are rocking qualities to have but when they start taking over ah you know sleep and stuff and all the brain space one can handle at any one time, it becomes somewhat of an issue. I realised this morning that its time to get my addiction under control. I spent my entire night tossing and turning with my brain under serious overdrive. Not a wink of sleep. Not even a minute. That’s when I knew i have an issue. Its called being overwhelmed.
If you have been following my blog for a little while (or simply just read my about me page), you would know that for a long time I battled a “little thing” called anxiety. It was one of the hardest, life changing times of my life and it nearly broke me. As a matter of fact, it did break me. Left me in pieces that took years to put back together. And if I can be completely honest with you, I wouldn’t change it for the world. Wait, what? Yes I can hear your jaw drop and you picking up the phone to send out help for me immediately.
How can one embrace something as horrible as anxiety and panic attacks. If you have ever suffered from either or both, you know what a horrible, soul shattering experience it can be, so I am sure you are mortified at what you have just read. BUT just bear with me for a little while longer and let me explain. (more…)
I found myself this weekend feeling completely exhausted after a week that was no more busier than normal. Sure I have been juggling so many (great and wonderful!) things but nothing that would cause me such tiredness and desire to stay in bed most of the weekend. Than today it dawned on me. I caught myself feeling so busy that I have been skipping most of my take care of one self routines. Yoga, meditation and my morning routine all took the back seat in my life.
No wonder life was feeling slightly out of whack. Its crazy but we get so busy with life that we forget to look after ourselves. Or my favourite excuse we give is that we have no time to focus on ourselves.
January 2014 was my reflection on 2013 time (yes I needed an entire month. Ok so not the entire month if you count for the fact I had holidays for half of it). February 2014 on the other hand is all about ensuring 2014 gives me what I really need and takes what it needs back. So I sat back and really thought about what I wanted this year to look like. To feel like.
I thought about the process of how I would go about it and with the craziness that my life can be at times, how I can make it as simple as possible. Because I knew that simple would work for me. I think it actually works for all of us. We start any project, idea, moment with a sense of excitement of what’s to come and how we can build it into something amazing. Until we get all crazy and over complicate it. Or over plan it. We commit to over committing to the planning process that we never actually allow it to see a light of day. We make resolutions, commitments and plans until we scare the s!hit out of ourselves with it all as it becomes too hard. (more…)